Day 02 - Your first love

[come_to_think]

I doubt if I am capable of love in the sense in which people mean it when they ask such a question. Certainly, there are people I feel sentimental about, and it is conceivable that I might act as if I loved them if the occasion arose (i.e., if an opportunity arose to sacrifice on their behalf). But that would only be thru following the rules as I have gathered them.

The earliest acquaintance I feel sentimental about is of course my mother.

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[redcolumbine.livejournal.com]

I've been In Love (TM) and seemed to be pretty good at it, but it was ages ago, and I'm really not sure whether I'd be likely to again. Romantic love seems like a total wild card to me, completely unpredictable and uncontrollable, like a Reset button, or the cat jumping on the table and knocking all the puzzle pieces on the floor. I can't help but consider "dating services" silly despite knowing many people who've used them with success. "I want to be in love" seems like an awkward approach at best. I've yet to meet anyone who could tell themself how to feel and make it stick, at least without ending up drinking too much or worse.

I do love my mother, my brother, my friends, and my cat, though, sometimes so much it scares me.